The map shows the approximate starting point of where I saw the mailman
along with the final destination of where I arrived. (My actual route
was different, however, than the straight line. I took a zigag way.)
I make an instinctive effort to send messages rather than receive. I wave to the mailman, and that has to be good. I have a Proust book in the backseat, I am really happy, trying to find the right song on the radio. Nicki Minaj does not work but Flo Rida's "Wild Ones" kind of does and I am wondering what I am to make of all this while trying to ignore the "check coolant" light that just turned on and has maybe been on the whole time and is starting to bother me. Nathan told me all the fluids were okay. But it's important to stay positive, to send some positive energy. I look around for something positive while waiting for cars to pass to make a left but am just annoyed that I have to wait for turns, and starting to feel different from the skydiving-like high from last night's drive. I notice the temperature gauge climbing steadily towards the red. I think of the gas stations near the DMV on Cloverfield and try to think if they have garages. Maybe I can get a ticket and instead of waiting and reading I can have Johnny checked out. Things become less solid. I become self-conscious about the loud music I am playing. Everything seems false, or forced, or blurry. I can't say for sure what is happening. The gauge is as deep into the red as possible, pushed to the limit, unable to go further. The water in the engine is starting to boil. I pull into the DMV and park. Two things become clear: there is something wrong with the convertible Nathan Benson sold me, and my dreams in life will never come true. It is 12:10. Jon Bernad, Los Angeles
RECIEVED - A puddle of water. A lightbulb - the non-energy saving kind. An explosion.
SLICA, Los Angeles & Johannesburg
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